Wednesday, June 15, 2022

With Great Power, Comes Great ...

I am responsible. It may not seem like it at times even to me but I know that I have a quite a few responsibilities. It may not be swinging through a city and stopping crime, but it is important work none the less. Responsible for the household, responsible to my family and friends and responsible to myself. I know that I have struggled with these, and I know that I will continue to struggle with these. Funny thing is though is that it is never alone. I have my husband to share the load with the house, I have friends and family reaching out to me constantly and visa versa. I truly am lucky to live in such a place with so much support and kindness! 


And now onto my Kung Fu Journey. I have recently been practicing mindfulness. To be honest, I thought it was going to take up my day a little bit more. It's not though. It is freeing in a way I did not expect. To think things through and refocus myself on the task at hand has really been great! I feel like that I was drifting and then I take that moment to go "Why am I here? What am I doing?"  Sometimes it like yeah im making lunch and continue doing so. Other times its like Huh, I've been staring at the wall for 5 min maybe I should go fold laundry or play with mac some more. 

I will continue to doing as I have this past week and we shall see how it goes! Have a great weekend and a wonderful Fathers day to those who celebrate!   

Thursday, June 9, 2022

Back on the bike

So it's 3 am on this beautiful Thursday morning and the boss has decided its extended cuddle time after being awake for 2 hours. I myself think it's sleepy time but my  constructive criticism has been disregarded. 

I find myself in a loop atm  A destructive one. I've been here before and I'll be here again. But I know it can get better. And the impact of the low will lessen each time as I gain an understanding of why I get this way.

I just needed to write something. Have a good rest of your day everyone