I am Brave

 So I have been slacking on a couple things lately and its just tough to get going again. It was board breaking on Monday and it was exhilarating. To feel my hard work from forms and repetition bear fruit in the way of something fracturing, cracking, breaking, yielding to my techniques gives a feeling of satisfaction that makes it all worth it. This was just kinda a PSA about how amazing board breaking it and that everyone should do it.

But on the subject of being brave. It takes a lot of courage to beat the mundane. I know for us in the I Ho Chuan it is told to us that we can rise above being mundane and ordinary and achieve mastery. It is no simple thing. Just today I struggled to go above ordinary because it was just that kinda day. There are things in my life that I need to change, starting with my commitment and dedication to the things I know are important. I know it is brave of me, and you do not know the fight within to put brave in this sentence with out quotations, it is brave of me to keep going. It feels like nothing at the moment. even this moment  at which I am writing this I do not feel very brave or content with how I am going at the moment. 

That was a bit of a ramble, but what I think I am trying to get across is that I am going to through this and i am going to be proud of how brave I was to not give up. It sure ain't an easy road but it is worth it. 

Anyway, have a great night and a wonderful Halloween!

I am the Captain of my Soul

 And the waves of life are drowning my ship. Hey everyone, its been a while and not for lack of ideas. Sifu Brinker has been telling us to fix out Kung Fu before we fix our life as things will just follow after. And lookie here . . . its happening. I fell out of touch again as it was getting overwhelming to do everything at once and uhhh I just fell into a rut. Wake up. Baby. Work. Baby. Sick for 2 weeks. Baby. Work. Thinking about how I have all the time in the world and none of the energy or effort. Baby. Work. Maybe sleep if the benevolent over Lady sees fit. 

What I'm trying to get across here is, that I have been thinking about doing things and not actually doing things. And I feel like this is the main struggle for me. Even if I get on the wagon again I am gonna hit a pothole and tumble out and hit the road again. And BOOM stuck in the rut again. 

Things have changed around the household for the better though. Mac is up and running around, going a thousand miles per hour no brakes. Her babbling and stories have increased but alas, it is still nonsense to I. Maybe one day I'll learn baby. Maybe they have it on Duolingo. 

What else.... hmm maybe next time I'll have more to write.

Have an awesome weekend everyone!