Exhaustion and Defeat

 Hey everyone. I think by the title you can see that this is not going to be an uplifting blog. But we will see. Sometimes these things take a turn for me.

So at the beginning of this year I knew that things were gonna change. And young naive me thought that the restricted mobility would be the hardest part. That the month or so of healing from the day I would be able to get back on track. But it has been so hard. Not just in a physical sense. On top of her being colic she is a lot. I know that I need time to adjust but its taking a lot longer than I had anticipated. Not saying that I would be able to go back to how they were before Mackenzie but I thought that I would be able to sneak in a form here and there or place her down and do some reps for 15min.  Nay nay she says.

She is so amazing though. She is already rolling back to front to back again. She babbles constantly and when it is time to sleep she makes sure that I get a bedtime story about how very much she does not want to do that. I win most of the time and she cuddles in for a small walk before bed. It is so wonderful everyday to watch her grow and learn.

When I wanted to initially write this blog it was going to be about how my numbers this year are horrendous and that I feel like my Hook sword form is nothing but garbage. Super downer talk. I do feel defeated though. I feel like no matter how much I can get at I Ho Chuan or how much time I can get away when baby is sleeping it still feels like I am going no where. Hopefully that will change. Hopefully I won't feel like I am dragging myself through the motions of the day. 

Anyway,  I hope that everybody is having an amazing November and that the snow is not bothering people too much! Stay safe and warm!