Asking more of me that I see in myself. The potential to become somthing greater. I think that is one of the most amazing things about growing up in a (semi) large family is the constant questions. The questions like. Hey you look like you enjoyed that why not try it out full time? Or the soft encouragement, I know that it's tough but I know that you can do better. And the sheer compassionate faith that they have in me. The people in my life have got my back through the thick and thin.
And honestly? For a while the line of I am doing this to better myself and the line of do this so you wont disappoint them became blurred. My self improvement was determined by what people thought I should do to become a better person. To be fair most of the time it did make me a better person than I was and did push me to new heights and achievements. But it was always that question in my mind of was this for me? Or for them? And it took me an embarrassingly long time to figure out that it sometimes can be both! And it was a relief to find out that even if I had my own goals away from what my family expects from me there will always be that support.
I think of all the situations in life that have led me to this moment. This now. And I know that I would not gotten here if not for the people in my life who want to see me go just that little bit further.
Thanks for reading y'all! Have a wonderful week!
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